I'm disappointed

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Before you read this post, please do not hunt Rosecord moderators, or individuals whose messages may appear in this post. While my goal is to get a message out, harassing individuals won't make a positive change. If you would like to help, you can go to #suggestions and link this article, maybe suggest a change.
Am I attacking the moderators? No. Only the way some of them handle things. Some moderators are excellent.

In 2021, I joined the prosperous and enlightening of "r/mattrose", a discord server created for converse around a youtuber I watched a lot, Matt Rose. This post is not to attack him in any way, he is genuinely one of the kindest internet strangers I've ever talked to, and he has played no part in this issue. This post is to question and challenge the fundamental bias and problems within Rosecord's moderation team.

Now, you may not know who I am; I worked mainly behind the scenes as a developer. I was an admin at Rosecord for a bit over a year, quickly working my way up the ranks after creating Rosebot, a discord bot to assist with moderation and just provide some fun commands to make the server more enticing and increase engagement rates, also because why not.

Let's skip the backstory, and go to the facts. Most rosecord moderators did not like me. Ever since I became a moderator, I could tell some people didn't like me. That's fine, you can't force someone to like someone, and if you dislike someone for their personality that's okay. Just don't whine about them. Unfortunately, in 2023 the moderators did not take this memo to heart.

I was recently removed from my staff position on February 24th. The reason given was that some individuals were unhappy with my recent behaviour. However, during the week of my removal, I was focusing on my studies and did not contribute much to the team.

Additionally, a few days prior, I decided to reduce the frequency of updates due to receiving unpleasant messages from some users who were demanding features and holding me accountable for unfulfilled "promises". Although I appreciate their enthusiasm for the bot, I have other priorities in my life such as studies and hobbies, and not implementing every requested feature is not a big issue.

Muted. Oh well.

This screenshot makes for an excellent wall poster!
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Yesterday, a conversation was started in #general, which was about slurs. None of us approved of them. We recognized that slurs are hurtful and dehumanizing, and can contribute to the perpetuation of systemic oppression and discrimination. tldr; they aren't good.

In one of my messages, I cited the first few letters of a word in an educational and respectful manner. Nobody was offended. Here's my message below.

My deplorable and despicable message

Nobody took issue with my message at first, until a manager swooped into chat.

Indeed, it is very owl πŸ¦‰

At first, I thought the moderator was agreeing with me saying it was ridiculous to use that word, but I was wrong. The moderator was instead condemning me for using the first 4 letters of a slur, in a conversation for educational and discourse reasons.

I find it interesting to see that the moderator only cared about what I was saying when other people were saying things much worse. The moderators are biased against me, and there is no way to prove it. They just have such a high disdain and grudge against me.

Yikes
Even more of a yikes.. I know it's a monty python reference but in this contextual conversation... not so great buddy
More recent but I'm certain a mod saw this.. yuck
Yeah.. this is where I fucked up

Let's end off this part of the punishment with a screenshot of what a manager has said recently.

In a full sentence? With the full word? 😲🀯

Trying to start beef? πŸ”

I wasn't trying to start problems, but I do admit that I shouldn't have brought up what I did. That's between me and the user in question.

Backchatting 2 staff members? πŸ‘©β€πŸ«

Not even a rule. We're not in school, are we?

"I wish I didn't have to do this" πŸ™

Sadly, I'm going "down the octo route". Refusing to be biased, is what this moderator claims, but I'd say otherwise. The moderator in question is defending their public reputation, they do not care if they are biased or not. I wish this didn't have to happen either, but it just shows that they only care about me breaking the rules or saying something they don't like. Anyone else can get away with it.

Accountability

Yeah I fucked up. I didn't handle it maturely.

What's next?

I am not going to be returning as admin in the near future, despite being offered to. I would like the staff to take this maturely, and not as an attack on character, but on policies and bias.

I don't want to make this post "too public", because Matt's reputation is also attached to his discord server and I don't want to harm it whatsoever. You will not be able to find this post in the list of posts, only by going to the URL.

Sorry about me, guys.
Moderators speculate that I'm going to backdoor the server. I'm not that petty. If I wanted to do it, I'd have done it by now.

Contact me at fizz#4096 or hello@fizz.red if you'd like to discuss this further.